I’ve been on the flex plan for nearing a month now. I want to see physical results! I mean, i have lost pounds, but i want to see them. It’s the feeling i get sometimes. I get home from the gym, and run to the mirror to check out if my belly is looking slimmer, only to find that, it’s not. Realistically, It will probably be months before i get a flat stomach. I just can’t help it. I think i can see a difference in my arms, but sometimes i think I’m just hallucinating. I think my face looks slimmer? It’s as if i want to see changes so bad that i’m starting to trick my brain into thinking that, IN FACT, there has been changes; Realistically, there has not been very obvious changes. Humph!
There has been changes, but very subtle ones.
I’m more alert, and focused. It’s been a really big help at work, and school. Before i started this journey, i was not alert. I’d hear something, and then seconds later I’d literally forget. It was annoying, because when i weigh animals at work, i would always forget, and then I’d have to re-weigh them. I’d also look at the chart to see what vaccines were needed and by the time i walked over to the vaccine freezer I’d have forgotten the THREE vaccines needed. You can see where this can be a problem. I can now remember things even after a day. I was so surprised when i remembered that to transfer Celcius degrees to Kelvins the formula is C +273.15 = K, and i just saw that ONCE! It might not be a big deal for some, but for me its incredible! I’m so happy!
I have a elevated mood. I was very depressed before. I’d have days when i just wanted to lay in bed, and not see, or speak to anyone. I’d be very upset, or angry and i wouldn’t even have a valid reason for it. I used to think about suicide alot, and i other things that really did not make sense. I now smile to myself, and to other people. I’m in a great mood all the time. I feel like i have some kind of glow to me. My skin has improved. Although it’s not completely clear, it’s cleared by a considerable amount! My complexion is starting to even, and i just have a few pimples here and there. See, Although i cannot fit into size 7 jeans. I already have achieved many things. I’d like people to think about that. It’s not only about loosing weight. It’s also about becoming a healthier person. It just feels good.
This week i did not get to go to the gym. Wednesday was the last time i was at the gym, and not because I’ve been lazy! I’ve been so busy now that school has started. I’ve got more things going on. I have to balance work, school, time to study, and the gym. It’s hard. I usually decide not to go to the gym on Fridays because i work all day 8am - 6pm. When i get home, i eat dinner, and its really only 30 minutes before my gym classes start. I work at an animal hospital as a Veterinary Assistant, and let me tell ya’. We don’t just sit around petting animals all day. It’s really exhausting. I’m hoping that all the running around i do during the day helps supplement for the gym in some kind of way.
I’m taking a fast-track sociology course during the weekend, and this has also interfered with my attendance at the gym. The class is from 10 -3:45PM ( Saturdays and Sundays). I know! It’s nuts. Since it’s a fast-track, we are required to read 3 chapters in one week, and also do several online quizzes before next class. On top of that, i’m also taking a course of Chemistry in regular school! So much to do. So little time. I’m hoping that once this month is over, i will be able to hit the gym as much as i’ve been prior to all this new stuff. Hmph.
I let my mom’s friend borrow my callanetics DVD. She wanted to make a copy. oooohh ILLEGAL! I know, but.. Welp. TIMES ARE HARD NOW-A-DAYS. Tuitions are going up, GAS PRICES are nuts, and such. Ok, so maybe i was trying to find some sort of excuse. Regardless, I don’t have the DVD with me so that i can work out on my own.
What to do? What to do! I’ll just have to deal.
I’m so happy about the comments i’ve been recieving. They have been very motivating, and i’m happy that i can motivate some of you who read this. This is so hard, but just know that you aren’t alone! I’m sure many of you go through many of the “obstacles” that i go through, and i guess we just have to find our own ways to deal with them. So what if we mess up here and there. Nothing wrong with that. Yeah, it might slow down the process, but atleast we are making some kind of effort! We can do it!
Good luck to everyone!
Thanks for reading! I’d be more than happy to hear about how your own journeys are going.
